urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:pod4477 pod4477 pod4477 2038-01-19T03:14:07Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:pod4477:460 2038-01-19T03:14:07Z 2038-01-19T03:14:07Z man i just got back from skatetown. damn i love and hate that place. everytime i go there i end up coming home feeling so alone. rgggg i feel like everyone takes the spotlight away from me. Rachel was going to tell me something, sat down and then i go to talk and ben is there first. kinda like a metaphor for my life. always somone there first. no matter what i do. every girl ive ever liked somehow doesnt like me back and it kills me everytime. Everytime i think im good something always brings me down. i feel so alone again im sick of being such a nice guy people must have fun walking all over me. This whole night it felt like everyone hated me. its like noone cared about me. rrrrrr i still like rachel and its killing me, shes not, but the situation is. Im getting tired so im out.